Hope resurfaces.

Two months ago I bought the Doreen Virtue deck “Mary Queen of Angels”. One of the very first cards I picked was “Hope”, but when I went to display in on my prayer board it slipped behind my bookcase and even though I looked for it I could not find it. I went as far as to replace the bookcase and move the nightstand cleaning behind each- but “Hope” did not reappear. This, I felt, was symbolic of my place in life; I had indeed lost “Hope”. Having been laid off some months earlier from a job I loved, doing inpatient hospice, because they closed the floor, I was sad.  I could not understand why God had let the earthly powers that be close the doors on HIS work.  It was a huge disservice to our community and left all of us who worked there broken hearted. But change is the only constant in life, and even though I tried to embrace the thought that when God closes one door he opens a window, I wasn’t sure that He realized that the windows are hermetically sealed in a hospital.  So for months I moped and whine and denied my fate, and “Hope” flew away.

Three days ago I was offered a new job, a hospice job with a company called, “Grace”. The window had opened and my soul flew through. Yesterday when I was making my bed, I inadvertently knocked my prayer board down onto the floor. I was slightly annoyed, now my prayers were totally earthbound! But to my ultimate surprise when I recovered the board the first card that appeared was “Hope”.  I am grateful she reappeared, because without “Hope” I am lost.