Last night I watched the movie “What Dreams May Come”. I had seen it in the theatre when it first came out- it was a packed house, without a dry eye. I remember reading an interview with Robin Williams at the time and he said that he almost didn’t take the part because he felt there were elements of the afterlife that were too dark, but ultimately he did.
Suicide was a huge theme in this movie-the irony was not lost on me last night. I loved that movie in so many ways-but agreed with Robin Williams that there was an unfair darkness in the writer’s perception of suicide. I believe in an all loving God, one who loves all his creation, his children, despite our often poor choices, His love is eternal. Yes, I think we can impose ourselves into “hell”, but I don’t believe we are sent there or meant to be there. God wants us to find Him, to remember our divine spark he sent us out into this crazy unpredictable world with. I believe in part that the sadness and hopelessness of suicide comes from forgetting that that divine spark is alive despite our angst, it can never go out, it is ultimately who we are, a child of a loving God. I am not judging, there is so much beyond my understanding of Life and Death, but I would ask that you remember that you are loved, always and eternally. And if you find yourself beyond hope, reach out to someone who’s spark you can see, someone who can be a beacon of light for you until you are able to see yourself again, as the divine beautiful radiant child you are.