the crash mat

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I have a patient who fell out of bed last week; her caregivers would only allow a crash mat to cushion the blow if she fell again. This patient is developmentally delayed, and perhaps one of the most open and honest people I have met in a long time. She comes from her heart, she calls everyone friend, she grabs your hand and hugs you warmly with joy. I think she is healing me with her unfiltered kindness. She does not give me advice she just revels in the fact I am there with her. She has become a blessing to me as she shows me that coming from your heart is a beautiful way to live.

I hear things, “you shouldn’t do this”, “you aren’t helping”, “you’re enabling the situation….” The words on the wind of others who think they know what it’s like to walk my journey….well meaning perhaps but not helpful.  I know now that when faced with the challenges before me there is only one way I can precede and that is through my heart.  My head struggles with the inner parent, the social ideals, the fears of the unknown- but my heart is true.  My heart cannot pretend it does not know what I need to do.  My heart is my moral compass, my one true guiding star in the darkness of doubt.  My heart sings the song of the Divine, of actions from love.  It knows no judgment, it is kind, –in its purest form it is the Divine calling to me to move forward to embrace the experiences life brings forth.  My head may label them as good or bad, up or down, but it is my battle ready heart, the heart of a warrior, healing from the scars of living, it is this that moves me to action.

We are all broken open by life, no one is exempt from this process as it is the nature of life, to grow and expand and reform, recycle, rebirth. Yes, we are all broken, beautiful children of a Divine Source whose essence is LOVE, but even if we feel like we are falling forever, it is where we are, falling thru love and love is our crash mat, and it is where we will always land.

About Angelnurse0513

I am a hospice nurse who has been writing spiritually inspired books for the past seven years. I have written a children's book called "Little Star" which is available in ebook format http://www.amazon.com/Little-Star-Phyllis-Higgins-ebook/dp/B00BOEHUS6. I am currently writing a novel on spiritual love and the afterlife and looking for a publisher. It is my deepest wish to help with the transition from this world to the next whether it be through my work in hospice or through my written words. Please feel free to contact me with any questions or concerns you have.
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4 Responses to the crash mat

  1. “Love is our crash mat.” That is so right on!! And so beautifully put. I can totally relate. The first time I was struggling with a fairly big decision (at least it felt this way), a wise friend told me to drop into my heart to decide. As soon as I did that, it was literally a no-brainer; so easy to decide. What was tripping me up was all of the “I should this or that.” As soon as I let go of other people’s conditioned judgments and values, I was able to stop should-ing on myself and move from my head to my heart.

  2. wow! so glad you connected with your heart!!! oxox

  3. maria demecilia matias ferreira says:

    tHANK YOU FOR YOUR POSTS THEY GIVE ME SUCH COMFORT! GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU SAFE! ALL MY LOVE MARIA!

    ________________________________ De: angelnursethoughts.wordpress.com Enviado: 1 de outubro de 2016 13:50 Para: demimf@hotmail.com Assunto: [New post] the crash mat

    Angelnurse0513 posted: ” I have a patient who fell out of bed last week; her caregivers would only allow a crash mat to cushion the blow if she fell again. This patient is developmentally delayed, and perhaps one of the most open and honest people I have met in a long time. She”

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