Today I performed the death-defying act of going grocery shopping. I doubt I have to elaborate on how this has become a source of great stress for many of us, a common place chore now one of scarcity, masks and tempers.
I was in the check out line- almost done when I heard yelling erupt next to me. The customer wanted to buy 2 dozen eggs and there was a limit of just one per customer. Her angry grew as she tried to coerce the salesperson into allowing her to buy the two she had picked out. The salesperson was clear there was a limit and that was that. You could tell by her demeanor she had had this battle many times in the past few weeks.
I quickly pulled the dozen I had just purchased and handed them to the customer- “Here, take mine. Really its’ okay, but you can’t have my toilet paper!” I joked. The customer was stunned at first declining my offer, she wanted to rage, she wanted to vent all over this poor salesperson. Finally, she took mine, offering to pay for them I declined and said it was a gift. I wished her a Happy Easter and left.
I myself have been very angry over the past month, venting to my nursing sisters about what is expected of us, etc. I realized today anger in general is the mask we wear when we are afraid. Yes, we are all fearful, because we are all human. I tell myself I should trust in the Divine, that my Spirit family is often sending me encouragement, they send me signs, situations resolve, thus far I have been safe. I struggle with my fears because in my head I know fear is the opposite of LOVE. I know I should come from LOVE and deny fear it’s desired place in my life. It has not been easy. Today I saw myself in this woman, she was really complaining that life is different, that she cannot continue on as she always has, getting what she wants when she wants it even if it’s only 2 dozen eggs. We all have had to embrace these changes, as the coming days will have changed our lives without a doubt.
I remember I once read that mean people need our love more, our kindness more, because they have just forgotten. I hope this small act of kindness breaks thru the fear and allows love to grow. Next time I am angry I will take off my mask and allow LOVE to make its home in my heart where it is no matter what is going on around me.
We cannot know what will happen, but we win the battle of fear. Remember We Are Love.